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this is me trying

Chad Lawson

We've all had those moments where we feel like we're falling behind or struggling to keep it together. This song captures that feeling perfectly, and Taylor has an incredible gift for putting complex emotions into words that just click, especially with younger folks grappling with mental health. I wanted to translate that raw emotion into the piano, giving people another way to connect with the song's message. No lyrics, just melody – sometimes that’s all you need to feel understood. I just wanted to create something that could offer a little bit of hope and a reminder that no one is alone in trying their best.

Meet the artist

Chad Lawson

Chad Lawson (1975) is an American pianist, composer and podcaster. Classically trained, he started composing songs in high school. Majoring in jazz performance at Berklee College of Music, he started a career as a studio and touring musician. In 1997, he formed the Chad Lawson Trio, which released three albums until 2004. His first solo album, an improvised jazz piano album, arrived in 2009. Many records followed, with “The Chopin Variations” (2014) being among the most successful ones.

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